Warning – Today’s blog may or may not be about running. I’ll see how I go.
In the last week, I have found myself coming to the end of an era in my professional life. For 13 years I put a lot of my energy, my time and myself into something that I have come to identify as being a big part of who I am.
In the space of a few short moments and via circumstances outside of my control, I had the project that I invested over a third of my life into, taken away.
So, when the world as you know it is turned upside down, it forces you to think.
My initial response was shock and confusion, then sadness, and now… now I’m not sure. But one thing I do know is that it has forced me to think hard about what really matters.
Some self-analysis is healthy and helps us to keep in touch with what drives us and what we value most. My self-analysis has shown me that I thought I had lost something very dear to me (and I have) but it has also shown me that the reason I held that thing so dear to me was because of what it meant I could give. I’ve also realized that I still have that opportunity to give and to create and to build, in other places and in other ways. I’m certain that I can contribute to my world in way that will fill the void from this chapter that has now ended.
While I’m saddened by the fact that a story has ended without me being the author of the final chapter, I’m also a little excited by what the next book may hold. I for one will be going into this new phase of my life with open eyes, ears and arms and will accept whatever possibilities and opportunities that come my way. Life has taught me that there are no certainties, except for the fact that life happens with or without you. So while you are here, make it matter.
Apologies for being a little cryptic with this blog. I’m writing today as more of a brain purge than for any other reason. I hope you can get something from it, but if not, I hope you can be happy that I did.
Back to my original warning… I didn’t end up writing about running sorry. Or perhaps I did?